April 1, 2018
I don't much care for using the word "struggling", but what I am going through right now, this word is the best at this moment to describe it.
I know that all things have a purpose, but I am still wondering why I keep going back and forth with wanting to "continue writing" what I am shown and to just "stop writing".
It is like a constant up and down, wanting too and not wanting too. I have come to understand that during the times I do write, an answer is given to questions I ask, so is this going to happen while I write about this?
Because of a "struggle", the question that needs to be asked "IS NOT", "Why I am struggling?" but "What is the purpose of the struggle?"
Is not the purpose of a "struggle" to break free from something, that in the struggle we can feel bound or shackled to something, but again, another question that begs to be asked is, "From what am I trying to break free from?" and the reason I ask for this is, "What is lost in when we start to struggle?" and the first thing that comes to mind in all of this is "peace".
Struggling in itself is a form of "unrest" or also understood as "not having peace". So why is "peace" taken away to enter into a struggle?
As I said earlier, an answer is usually given while I write, and what came to mind from this is: "growth" or "growing". Do we view our "struggle" as "growth" or "growing"? Do we view our struggle as breaking free from something old to be free to move into something new? And "What is the 'new' that we are we are moving into to?" Which can also be understood as "What is the 'new' that we are growing into?
And can we understand this in the context of what a plant goes through in growing, in that it breaks free from the confines of the shell of the seed and as it grows, it also breaks the surface of the ground to freely grow in the open space we call the atmosphere?
Do we or "can we" see the big picture of breaking free from the confines of the shell of the seed as "a breaking away from the flesh" and then the breaking free from the confines of the ground as "a breaking free from the confines of 'a fleshly way of thinking'", but still understanding where are roots are?
Do we understand that "the flesh" and "the way the flesh thinks" are two different things we need to be freed from? And can we also understand these two things as being freed from "the world" and being freed from "the way the world thinks"?
We know that religion is something that is separated from the world within the context of believing in God, but how is religion any different than the world in its "way of thinking" believing in "the punishment of those who do wrong"? Why do we believe that God is no different than the judges in this world? Are God's ways the way of the world? In other words, is God going to handle things exactly the way the world does?
In the world, we appoint men to rule over us and we call it "politics", so how are we any different if we appoint men to rule over us and we call it "religion"? Are we not just going from one form of rule to another? Are we fooled into believing one is better than another simply because the concept of God is involved in one and not in the other?
I don't much care for using the word "struggling", but what I am going through right now, this word is the best at this moment to describe it.
I know that all things have a purpose, but I am still wondering why I keep going back and forth with wanting to "continue writing" what I am shown and to just "stop writing".
It is like a constant up and down, wanting too and not wanting too. I have come to understand that during the times I do write, an answer is given to questions I ask, so is this going to happen while I write about this?
Because of a "struggle", the question that needs to be asked "IS NOT", "Why I am struggling?" but "What is the purpose of the struggle?"
Is not the purpose of a "struggle" to break free from something, that in the struggle we can feel bound or shackled to something, but again, another question that begs to be asked is, "From what am I trying to break free from?" and the reason I ask for this is, "What is lost in when we start to struggle?" and the first thing that comes to mind in all of this is "peace".
Struggling in itself is a form of "unrest" or also understood as "not having peace". So why is "peace" taken away to enter into a struggle?
As I said earlier, an answer is usually given while I write, and what came to mind from this is: "growth" or "growing". Do we view our "struggle" as "growth" or "growing"? Do we view our struggle as breaking free from something old to be free to move into something new? And "What is the 'new' that we are we are moving into to?" Which can also be understood as "What is the 'new' that we are growing into?
And can we understand this in the context of what a plant goes through in growing, in that it breaks free from the confines of the shell of the seed and as it grows, it also breaks the surface of the ground to freely grow in the open space we call the atmosphere?
Do we or "can we" see the big picture of breaking free from the confines of the shell of the seed as "a breaking away from the flesh" and then the breaking free from the confines of the ground as "a breaking free from the confines of 'a fleshly way of thinking'", but still understanding where are roots are?
Do we understand that "the flesh" and "the way the flesh thinks" are two different things we need to be freed from? And can we also understand these two things as being freed from "the world" and being freed from "the way the world thinks"?
We know that religion is something that is separated from the world within the context of believing in God, but how is religion any different than the world in its "way of thinking" believing in "the punishment of those who do wrong"? Why do we believe that God is no different than the judges in this world? Are God's ways the way of the world? In other words, is God going to handle things exactly the way the world does?
In the world, we appoint men to rule over us and we call it "politics", so how are we any different if we appoint men to rule over us and we call it "religion"? Are we not just going from one form of rule to another? Are we fooled into believing one is better than another simply because the concept of God is involved in one and not in the other?